Today was the most interesting lesson I've ever had.
Obviously working as an OT you would have to deal with people with special needs
So today we had a taste of how it was like to be visually and physically impaired.
I was moving around the uni campus on a wheelchair and it was actually fun for the first few minutes till i had to maneuver myself around lecture theatres and around the canteen.
Passing through the doors was such a challenge and neither can i get the drinks that i want on the high shelves.
Later in the day my task was to go to Bunnings to get some gardening tools.
Going out in public was awkward cause for once i could not walk through short cuts and such but took a longer route to get into the warehouse and getting stares from people made everything a whole lot worse.
So anyways,the second task which i had to fulfil was visual impairment whereby i had on these glasses that gave me tunnel vision and diabetic retinopathy.
I had to say it was quite a challenge to climb stairs and to find resources on the internet.
Overall through this exercise i can actually understand why clients get frustrated and why they act the way they do during rehabilitaion.

Am going to go into my placement into a rehab centre this Friday.
Am so very nervous...cause i am actualluy going to deal with real life patients and no longer theory based in the comfort of my class.
I just hope i wont screw up cause this whole excercise is 40% of my overall grades this semester...
Wish me luck!

I hate being sick
Its the worst feeling ever to be in a foreign place,being sick and alone.

Fever
Cold
Tons of assignments
Placements
Tests.

How much more awesome can uni life get? Urgh...

This is sad
I am actually not looking forward to my 21st birthday
I must be the only chick in the world whose not lookinng forward to her 21st
In fact, it kindda depresses me.

1. I really don't know what to do
2. Every one's back home

I've always imagined family and friends being with me on my big day
Now,...well what can i say?

Am finally feeling a little bit more at home at Monash
Believe it or not we actually had a 'speed dating' kinda thing on campus yesterday.
Met a few interesting people
And of course one person stood out to me since day one.
Eddie.
Even odder..he's in OT as well
see the ratio of girls to guys is like 10:1
So you can imagine how all the girls are vying for attention from all the guys.
And how can i ever compete with them Aussie chicks?
haha,I'll stick to my pool of international men thank you.

Its finally sinking in i am in OT
what I've always wanted.
And of course tutorials, lectures and labs are now all on full swing.
Yea been rushing about here and there and well...what can i say, i kinda enjoy it really

And the conception that Australians are racist especially in the rural areas..
well i think its a myth
By right i think the Asian actually brought it upon themselves by sticking together and not mixing around
So up till now its like a branded thing. Asians stick together so why bother.
so thanks to all the bloody previous Asians I'm trying to break the stereotype.

In just one simple song it describes everything on you and me.
I was blinded.
I knew you were so wrong and yet i've convinced myself that one day you'd change.
I've been waiting for so long that in the process I've lost a part of me to you.
And yes,i've never given up so much for someone as i have done for you.
But now i realise its all in vain.
As stupid as this sounds i still love you.
and i think i'll remain in love with you for a long long time until someday someone can actually mend my broken heart.
Its been shattered into a million pieces that even i cant be bothered to piece them back together again.
I wish i could hate you but its just too damn tiring...loving you is actually much easier,its just more natural.
I wish i could say more n pour my heart out but i have no words left to say
Just that i feel like shit and i really hate myself for giving in to u.


Rihanna-Rehab

Baby baby
When we first met I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
And now I feel like....oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept?
You'd do anything for the one you love
'Cause anytime that you needed me I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is that you was using me
In a different way than I was using you
But now that I know it's not meant to be
I gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
'Cause now I feel like....oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease


Oh! You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

It was already a big step to move out into Melbourne and now I'm moving away from all my family and friends into a new area just so that i can attend Monash Uni.
Its finally taking its toll on me...I'm feeling all the loneliness and culture shock which i should have experience when i first arrived.
But lucky for me when i first came here i lived with my aunt and hence the culture shock did not arise.
Now that i have finally moved out on my own everything comes crashing down...yeap reality hit me hard.. now i am seriously responsible for my own well being.
I had to make sure i had enough money for food, rent, transport, bills, books, placements, uniforms and what not...its like as though I've been forced to grow up in a matter of days.
Which i suppose i should have done a long time back though i was mostly sheltered by my parents. So now i am learning it the hard way,which in the end actually makes me more independent and helps me learn more about myself and what i am capable of.

And who the hell ever said uni was easy? Shit, that person is a liar.
My four core subjects are really challenging and require loads of commitment...how the hell do people party? Man,i need a crash course in time management...any ideas anyone??

In my course..i am like the only international student and omg its really hard to fit in with the Australians. They talk in a different lingo and tend to stick to whoever they know from Year 12 or whatever...its such a nightmare right now.
I just wanna get over this awkward stage asap and move on to the stage of familiarity.

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Please just let me go.
Don't make this any harder than it already is
You know full well how i feel about you.
Is that not enough?