Even if i leave you now
and even if it breaks my heart,
I'll give you up.
I finally realise what I'm feeling.
I think i love you.

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Had an awesome time at St Kilda's beach festival.
We were dancing in the streets to live bands...
dining at awesome restaurants with club beats blasting in our ears
Watch people do the darnedest things when they high
Ooh and my fav part is at the funfair where i won my little Huski toy which i love!! (I beat 9 other people in a game whoo hooo)























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A mini meet up/ farewell before i left for Monash.

Ok i am beyond stressed
Everything is fucked up.
This whole situation is shit.

This may be over exaggerating the situation but i feel so lost,alone and scared at the same time.
I know what i should do but I'm hesitating,
I know I'm given a choice of a lifetime but I'm unsure,
I am so so thankful..more than anything...BUT ultimately really apprehensive and afraid of the unknown.

Don't get me wrong i am ecstatic and very thankful to have gotten into Monash Uni.

But given the short amount of time for me to settle admissions, finding a place to live, getting to know the new area, starting anew all over again, not knowing or having anyone close for at least 2hrs drive away...it got to me.

I have no idea why the campus is located so far away from the city centre,i really have no clue.

To make us study and not party? To give us more concentration?

















I have to admit the beaches are really beautiful, the area is after all a tourist attraction...BUT shit i grew up in a city state man...where the hell am i gona shop???

The only drive i have (and the only thing to keep me sane) is my love for Occupational Therapy.

I just hope at the end of the day,it will all be worth it cause i promised myself that if i actually got a chance to get into Monash i would work my ass off and thats what i intend to do.

I've had sleepless nights for the past 3 days which obviously explains the dark rings under my eyes.
I had played out every scenario , situations and results in my mind and finally have made the decision to take up a degree in health science.
I've made the decision and i felt contented. Once again, as usual my family members were there for me to help guide me throughout the decision process as well as my lovelies from back home. Thank you guys so much.


After all the stress everyone of us went through we decided to head down to da beach.
Awesome weather,

After days of undeniable heat, it was nice to feel the cool night breeze on my face.
But,even the cool breeze could not help contain my anger.
My heels were killing me and i was stuck in the city at 4am with 2 annoying brats.
I'm not putting a label on anyone but I swear...sometimes them rich kids are so god damn spoilt.
Just because they always get their own way back home all the time don't make it right here.

I need a change of environment and i really need different company.
I now see that we're just not working out anymore.
Unfortunately me loosing my temper is not helping the situation.
and I know its a huge flaw of mine that i need to work on.

Regardless. I don't wanna deal with a guy who can't stop smoking 'shit' and getting high all the time.
You told me you've quit. Saying that its all over.
And the most silliest part is i actually believed you.
I believed you and you've let me down, again. Its beyond my comprehension as to why you do it.
But i dun wanna try to understand anymore.
Its over. No more.

But i do miss the old you.
and i know he no longer exists.